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We're in limbo right now. So that leaves me a lot of time to think about where we'll end up. Now that I have had time to think about it, the future is scary! But then I find a picture like the one above and it makes me feel better. Micah and I are always smiling, so the future shouldn't be as scary when we're together, right? {Micah had just hit me in the head...on accident of course, but we just laughed}

But now that we have a little bun in the oven there's even MORE to think about. There's a few things that I had wanted to be done, such as school. Now I'm not regretting that I'm not graduated, I never liked people who always looked back and thought "what if..." It's my own fault that I'm not graduated yet. Not that I'm going to stop after I have the baby either, it just puts a delay in plans.

We're also living with Micah's parents, which we are so grateful for, because we have had the opportunity to pay off bills, and start saving. But sometimes I get so frustrated at where this is all leading to! We know we'll be here for another 4 months. So that's a start somewhere, right?

Then what will I do for a career once I graduate? I was a nanny, well...more like the mother and father for this family in California. So I definitely know that I do not want a full time job with somebody caring for my children. But I do know that I want a part time gig doing something, something that is beneficial to me, something that makes me feel successful, and of course something that will use my hard earned work at college (what's the point of getting a degree if I'm not going to use it?)

Then I remember of what my parents did for me. I slept in a drawer with a pillow in it when I was an infant. I didn't know the difference, I was happy, clean, and loved. My parents didn't have a concrete plan, other than my dad working full time to provide, that was about it. SoWHY in the world am I worrying sooo much?! I really don't know. But I do know that I will graduate from USU, that we will end up in our own home, that we will have a child here soon, that we have friends and family who love us, and lots of pictures of Micah and I smiling. And that's good enough for me right now!